November 2005
November 02
Won’t Back Down
Quick!! Before I forget!
We went to a club in DC on Saturday night that was having a Halloween Party. Besides the long ride and lack of naked women we had a good time. I managed to “find” some discarded butterfly wings and slipped them on my back before we left for the evening. On our way back to the Metro Jonny wanted to wear them. I’m not one to share but that I couldn’t refuse! So we’re walking downtown DC with J who’s got a grim reaper hooded cloak with these blue and purple butterfly wings flapping away. Yeah it was beautiful. I wanted M to take a picture so bad! While trying to get his attention I slipped and fell and hurt my back…. Again.
Not such good timing since I just paid $75 for a massage to loosen up my back anyway. Now my shoulders are feeling good and my lower back is aching. Crappy.
Now, random things that happened lately:
My niece called to borrow a costume and she told me on a side note that Mom had a stroke and she can’t move her left side. ~ I don’t feel good or bad about it. Worse yet, I know I would feel happy if Dad where still alive.
I won a pumpkin carving contest at work. $15 Starbucks Gift Card….. hell yeah!
That’s it for now, I’m going through another bout of motivation at work but not at home.
2:57 PM
Kryptonite
Ok here’s my questions, cause you know I always have them.
Do you believe in spirits?
Do you believe that the dead can contact the living?
Do you believe in mediums?
It won’t hurt to try, would it?
Have any suggestions?
Ok now that’s really it. Bye for now….
3:03 PM
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November 07
Right Round
Well I had a nice simple weekend. I went to the club on Friday night to ask for my Job back but turns out Casey had a migraine (or a hangover) So I didn’t even get to talk to him. It’s ok though I texted him on Sunday:
Casey, ok to come back on Friday? Candy
reply:
Sounds Great.
That’s the easiest job interview I’ve ever had.
Saturday:
I had to push mow the whole lawn because our riding lawn mower was broke AGAIN! Piece-a-crap. Yeah I didn’t want to do anything else that day besides walk back and forth across my lawn for 3 hours. After that I downloaded a demo of Caesar 3 and played until my arm was numb. Hung out with M for a while on the couch and went to bed.
Sunday:
I brought a soup picnic to Christian at work because she was sick. Probably more heartbroken than anything. She just learned that her favorite stripper is not gay; in fact she has a boyfriend. I try to tell all my friends not to think about dating a stripper because it’s all an illusion. But I understand, I’ve been on that end of the illusion.
M and I cooked dinner and hung out for a bit and I went to bed.
Nice simple weekend. – oh… anyone know how to loose 10 pounds in let’s see…. 5 days? Me neither.
9:27 AM
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November 09
shut up
Headache
Fever
Nausea
AAACK 3:45 PM
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November 10
incredible
I cannot believe that I'm fighting off some kind of bug at this point and time. I don't even want to label it as the flu because I just got the freakin flu shot on Monday. I'm supposed to be having a restful week. I wanted to be rested for my first weekend back at the club. Now you know that once you've gone a few days with a fever, it takes a few days to get your strength back. So much luck. I'm going to be stumbling on my 6 inch platform heels before 11 o'clock tomorrow night and that won't be because of the tequila!
That's ok, my face is breaking out like I'm thirteen. Only because I'm supposed to start my period any old time now. You heard it boys. I'll probably start this weekend and you seasoned readers know what that means! Yep! tuck it! I know.. I know the illusion of the strip club will never be the same. We don't get time off for Aunt Flo visits, sorry fellas.
At any rate, I've had butterflies in my tummy for the last week. I'm excited to get back on stage. And I'm excited to be able bring in the $$$ CASH! whew! It'll be nice. Ok I'm going back to bed. Anyone know any cures for SARS? Me neither...
Love
~Candy 9:11 PM
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November 11
Talking about rock, paper, scissors...WTF?
Thought for the day...
I understand that scissors can beat paper, and I get how rock can beat scissors, but there's no fucking way paper can beat rock. Paper is supposed to magically "wrap around" rock, rendering it immobile? Why the hell can't paper do this to scissors? Screw scissors, why can't paper suffocate students as they attempt to take notes in class? I'll tell you why-- BECAUSE PAPER CAN'T BEAT ANYBODY! A rock would tear that shit up in 2 seconds. When I play rock/paper/scissors, I always choose rock. Then when somebody claims to have beaten me with their paper, I punch them in the face with my already clenched fist and say, "Oh shit, I'm sorry. I thought that paper would protect you"
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all is fair in love and war
women don't play fair never have and never will.
11:11 AM
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November 15
mind on my money and money on my mind
yep, very good weekend.
I'm hurtin a little but it comes with the job.
I'm so glad I went back. It was like home.
You know what the strangest thing is? Sitting in my cubicle Monday morning. What a very diverse life!
A double life even. Wow, ok. I really don't have long to write, I just wanted to let you know that I'm still alive.
Candy~ 9:03 PM
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November 16
Dancin in the Streets
Well I still feel like poop but I’m still moving. Mind over matter I guess.
Anyhow, like I said, I had a good weekend. It was very good to be back and I didn’t fall off my shoes once! Aren’t you proud?!? I had such a great time and I totally exhausted myself. Come Monday I felt like a zombie.
I cannot explain the feeling I got when I came into work on Monday and sat down at my desk. It feels so good to have a life outside of my cubicle filled office I call Moleville. The funny thing is that having a life outside of Moleville is quite a feat. Really, the people I work with find it hard to imagine I work with the National Auto Sport Association on my free time. Could you imagine if they knew what I did for extra money on the weekends? They would have a melt down in their brown leather penny loafers. Leaving only a starched white shirt and perfectly creased Dockers lying atop their perfectly shined shoes with the inhabitant nowhere to be found. Well if that happened I would consider myself off the hook because there would be no-one to spread the juicy news.
In other news:
My bro Carl called me this weekend asking if I’d heard from Liz my step-mom about Thanksgiving. He’d been calling and leaving messages but she’s not calling him back. So here we are a week before the big day and no word from her. It’ll be interesting to see how this pans out. I hope I’ll be pleasantly surprised but most likely I’ll be miserably disappointed. I asked him to keep trying to contact her and to let me know what he comes up with. My Sis Caren has opened her home to the tribe, we can all gather there and feel cruddy together I suppose.
I have always really hated the holidays, now I LOATHE the holidays. I hated the holidays because of a lot of reasons. Buying gifts for people I barely know, working in retail for so many years dealing with idiotic customers, remembering that my mother was out there somewhere not giving a crap about me, realizing that Christmas is not about Jesus’ birth but about a fat man in a red suit and who gets the most stuff in the end and the over all fake spirit of it all. Normally, Thanksgiving and Christmas where spent with my Dad and Liz. That’s what I did. They made things better. Sitting in the cozy living room drinking wine and eating turkey. Laughing and joking and catching up with the family. Watching the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade. Christmas had turned into a nice morning where M and I and the dog would hop in the car and drive over the rivers and through the woods to help Liz cook dinner and open gifts. Christmas symbolized a nice peaceful ending to a rather hectic season. Christmas meant it was time to relax and rest.
Now, all those reasons that I listed up there really don’t bother me anymore. What bothers me is that we’ve not only lost a Dad but a tradition, a home base to gather and remember what we all look like. We’ve lost a lot.
I really am going to feel bad this year for not having my father and not having the things the way they where but I am not going to take the people I love for granted. I’m going to make the most of it and I’m going to enjoy every second with my husband and my siblings. This I promise. My Dad would and does want it that way. It’s a shame that it took him dying for me to realize that all the other stuff didn’t matter anyway. 5:08 PM
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November 17
Fall Cleaning
I think it's time I clean out my closets.....http://www.collegejunk.net/
11:15 AM
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November 20
Everybody Knows Your Name
"Making your way in the world today takes everything you've got.
Taking a break from all your worries sure could help a lot.
Wouldn't you like to get away?
Sometimes you wanna go...
Where everybody knows your name
And they're always glad you came.
You wanna be where you can see,
Troubles are all the same.
You wanna be where everybody knows your name.
You wanna go where people know,
People are all the same.
You wanna go where everybody knows your name."
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My weekend started out with a very interesting issue that to the normal person would not be an issue. Actually most normal people would be content with it.
I’m talking about a hive, a quarter size hive placed directly on my ass cheek. Why would a normal person be content with that? Well, because it is not on their forehead and it is easily concealed. Considering that I am an exotic dancer, and we get totally naked in our club AND most people are staring at my ass… you can see the problem! It looked like a big red herpie or something!
I managed to Google my problem on Friday and come up with a solution. I found out that most hives can be cleared up with an antihistamine. So I promptly popped a Claritin in hopes that it would magically disappear before my grand appearance on stage. It did, in fact, diminish dramatically during the day and I only had a small dime size red welt on my ass by the time I got to the club. What’s a girl to do?! Apply Preparation H to shrink it and apply concealer to well… Conceal it! All I had to do was to remember to apply the concealer regularly and it was magically hidden!
In my last endeavor as a stripper, I had painful knee issues. If you’ve never gone to a strip club then you are probably wondering why. Well, in the club in which I work, we dance on a stage that is about the height of a table so guys are looking at your ankles if you’re standing up. We have enough room on the stage to get down on our hands and knees and do all kinds of sexy things. If you have ever spent more than 10 minutes on your knees crawling around on linoleum or other hard surface looking for an earring you know that your knees are not accustomed to dealing with that kind of stress. I’ve always had knee problems, I think that it was because I was always falling on my knees when I was a kid. Anyhow, I suffered then and I’m suffering now of knee pain but I do believe that I’ve found a few supplements that are helping. One is Arnica, it is an herb that helps repair muscles, relieves pain and diminishes bruising. This stuff is amazing!!!!! You can take it internally or apply it topically. I chose the topical solution because the former is hard on my tummy. I apply this stuff to my knees once before work and once afterward and I do not have bruising. NONE. I also do not have much swelling. This in itself is amazing because before I started using this stuff I would have black swollen knees after Friday night and I would have to wear stockings the rest of the weekend and long skirts and pants throughout the week.
The second supplement that I found is called Lubriflex3. It is a triple action joint formula made by Schiff. It contains Glucosamine Hydrochloride (restores cartilage), Hyaluronic Acid (it is a component in the natural synovial fluid that is in your knees), Chinese Scullcap and Black Ctechu (these last two are antioxidant that helps protect and preserve the cartilage and synovial fluid). Aside from making me pee yellow, it has really helped with the cracking and popping that my knees have always suffered from. And now that they are stressed so much it has actually helped prevent further damage. I can notice a difference after one dose of this supplement. It claims that in thirty days it can make a huge difference. All I have to do is remember to take it twice a day with food. Not as easy as it seems I’m finding.
I made a lot of $$ this weekend and I really enjoyed myself.
Have a great day I’m out for now.
C~
1:46 PM
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November 21
Christmas is Cancelled.
Ever been caught off guard by the most common things? I go to the mall at least once a week. I don’t always buy, sometimes I go just to browse on my lunch break. Today I had a purpose. I wanted to buy some dress flats. Don’t be caught off guard by my outlandish purchase. I can’t remember the last time I actually bought dress flats. But that’s not the purpose of this entry. I’ll get to the reasoning about my purchase later. My point is that when I opened the doors to go into the mall I was hit by a gust of Holiday flare. Carols blasting and garland and all the red and green and sparkles that malls do so well. Now I knew this season was going to be a difficult one. I thought I was ready to put my best foot forward. I just found out that I’m not. No where near ready to face the holidays. I did go ahead with my search and purchase of the shoes. By the time I left the mall I couldn’t breathe and by the time I returned to work I was busting with tears. And by the time someone asked me what was wrong I exploded. I just want to curl up in my husband arms and cry myself to sleep.
4:31 PM –
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November 22
Down
Today was a standard day.
Nothing went all that wrong.
Only difference is I feel like I’m catching a cold and I feel like I could sleep forever. I would like to sleep at least until January.
I asked my niece to find out if there is anything going on Thursday. She hasn’t called me back yet. I’m thinking of saying screw it and not leaving the house or my jammies. Whatever I do I’ll have M and Christian with me so I’ll be ok.
I’m having a hard time concentrating, therefore, it’s hard to write.
That’s all the updates I have for you.
4:52 PM
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November 23
Sweet Home Alabama
Have a great day with your families.
3:56 PM
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November 25
It’s beginning to feel a lot like……
Christmas never felt like this. Well ok I remember when Christmas felt worse than this. So I can say that this is something that I’m learning to accept. At least my father offered me a few good years without drama from Mothers. I also have to add that I have my own life now and this bullshit is not going to overwhelm my life.
Let me start from where I left off…. My Brother (father’s son) was leaving messages for my step-mom asking about Thanksgiving. Would there be a dinner? Where we invited? Hello? Anybody home? I left this task in his hands because he was able to accept that she would be having a hard time with the Holiday, he was willing to give her the benefit of the doubt. She never called him back.
The Monday before Thanksgiving rolls around and still no response from her. My sister-in-law drove 200 miles and confronted my step mother at work. I don’t know the tone of the conversation but the gist was “are we going to have Thanksgiving dinner?”. Step Mom said oh yes of course we are!
I was torn. I wanted to go and support our end of the family. I didn’t want to go because I knew it was going to tear me apart with my Dad not being there. I didn’t want to go because I was scared of the cold shoulder from my step-mother and her children. M didn’t want to go either. He said if we had to force our invitation, it just wasn’t right.
My Brother, his wife and two kids, Sister, her friend Deb, Niece, her husband and her two children all went to the dinner. I avoided their calls because I didn’t want to argue my point until all was settled.
So M, Christian and I all hung out at my house watching TV and talking and eating a cheese ball that Ms. Christian whipped up for us. M and I where so thankful that Christian could spend her day with us. She doesn’t realize how much better she makes us feel when she’s around. She has an intuition that surpasses most adult’s. I hope we made her holiday a little better too.
Their dinner started at 3 o’clock. At 4:30 my Niece called me from my sister’s house down the road from my Dad’s house. She said she would never go back. She said that my step-mom’s family politely ignored our side of the family. Dad’s children sat at the table and ate dinner and Step-Mom and children ate in the living room. She said they where there for about an hour and the iciness was their cue to leave. I’m glad to say that I didn’t go. I would have sat their and cried the whole time. For the loss of my father and for the loss of my mother.
What are the chances of loosing two mother’s in one lifetime? And both are still alive. I will not believe that I am such a bad person. Hell, that we are such bad people!
So M, Christian and I went to Cracker Barrel for dinner. We drove all around town looking for someplace open and it was the only restaurant open.
My Niece and her family stopped by our house for a bit on their way home and then we went to bed. Christian went home you pervs.
Anyhow, Wednesday night at the club was not so great. It was not as busy as I expected and I spent most of my $$ on alcohol but at least being there occupied my brain. This weekend should be a very good one. Hopefully I’ll walk out each night w/ more than $500.
We’re not allowed to take time off at my day job during this time of year. That goes for all employees. That’s what you get for working retail. So I’m here working – ish.
Have a great weekend, and I hope you had a great big feast yesterday.
C
10:09 AM
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November 27
Evenflo
Damn it, I typed an update here and pasted it to Word for spell-check but I lost it. Crap. so now you get the scaled version.
I hurt my foot on Friday night, I feel off my shoes taking off my panties. It still hurts.
M is taking Jonny to the Marine Corps recruiting center. He's off to boot camp. We'll miss him!
That's it for now, I'm still working on my first cup of coffee and I don't feel like typing all that again. Have a great Sunday!
Kisses
Candy
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Won’t Back Down
Quick!! Before I forget!
We went to a club in DC on Saturday night that was having a Halloween Party. Besides the long ride and lack of naked women we had a good time. I managed to “find” some discarded butterfly wings and slipped them on my back before we left for the evening. On our way back to the Metro Jonny wanted to wear them. I’m not one to share but that I couldn’t refuse! So we’re walking downtown DC with J who’s got a grim reaper hooded cloak with these blue and purple butterfly wings flapping away. Yeah it was beautiful. I wanted M to take a picture so bad! While trying to get his attention I slipped and fell and hurt my back…. Again.
Not such good timing since I just paid $75 for a massage to loosen up my back anyway. Now my shoulders are feeling good and my lower back is aching. Crappy.
Now, random things that happened lately:
My niece called to borrow a costume and she told me on a side note that Mom had a stroke and she can’t move her left side. ~ I don’t feel good or bad about it. Worse yet, I know I would feel happy if Dad where still alive.
I won a pumpkin carving contest at work. $15 Starbucks Gift Card….. hell yeah!
That’s it for now, I’m going through another bout of motivation at work but not at home.
2:57 PM
Kryptonite
Ok here’s my questions, cause you know I always have them.
Do you believe in spirits?
Do you believe that the dead can contact the living?
Do you believe in mediums?
It won’t hurt to try, would it?
Have any suggestions?
Ok now that’s really it. Bye for now….
3:03 PM
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November 07
Right Round
Well I had a nice simple weekend. I went to the club on Friday night to ask for my Job back but turns out Casey had a migraine (or a hangover) So I didn’t even get to talk to him. It’s ok though I texted him on Sunday:
Casey, ok to come back on Friday? Candy
reply:
Sounds Great.
That’s the easiest job interview I’ve ever had.
Saturday:
I had to push mow the whole lawn because our riding lawn mower was broke AGAIN! Piece-a-crap. Yeah I didn’t want to do anything else that day besides walk back and forth across my lawn for 3 hours. After that I downloaded a demo of Caesar 3 and played until my arm was numb. Hung out with M for a while on the couch and went to bed.
Sunday:
I brought a soup picnic to Christian at work because she was sick. Probably more heartbroken than anything. She just learned that her favorite stripper is not gay; in fact she has a boyfriend. I try to tell all my friends not to think about dating a stripper because it’s all an illusion. But I understand, I’ve been on that end of the illusion.
M and I cooked dinner and hung out for a bit and I went to bed.
Nice simple weekend. – oh… anyone know how to loose 10 pounds in let’s see…. 5 days? Me neither.
9:27 AM
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November 09
shut up
Headache
Fever
Nausea
AAACK 3:45 PM
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November 10
incredible
I cannot believe that I'm fighting off some kind of bug at this point and time. I don't even want to label it as the flu because I just got the freakin flu shot on Monday. I'm supposed to be having a restful week. I wanted to be rested for my first weekend back at the club. Now you know that once you've gone a few days with a fever, it takes a few days to get your strength back. So much luck. I'm going to be stumbling on my 6 inch platform heels before 11 o'clock tomorrow night and that won't be because of the tequila!
That's ok, my face is breaking out like I'm thirteen. Only because I'm supposed to start my period any old time now. You heard it boys. I'll probably start this weekend and you seasoned readers know what that means! Yep! tuck it! I know.. I know the illusion of the strip club will never be the same. We don't get time off for Aunt Flo visits, sorry fellas.
At any rate, I've had butterflies in my tummy for the last week. I'm excited to get back on stage. And I'm excited to be able bring in the $$$ CASH! whew! It'll be nice. Ok I'm going back to bed. Anyone know any cures for SARS? Me neither...
Love
~Candy 9:11 PM
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November 11
Talking about rock, paper, scissors...WTF?
Thought for the day...
I understand that scissors can beat paper, and I get how rock can beat scissors, but there's no fucking way paper can beat rock. Paper is supposed to magically "wrap around" rock, rendering it immobile? Why the hell can't paper do this to scissors? Screw scissors, why can't paper suffocate students as they attempt to take notes in class? I'll tell you why-- BECAUSE PAPER CAN'T BEAT ANYBODY! A rock would tear that shit up in 2 seconds. When I play rock/paper/scissors, I always choose rock. Then when somebody claims to have beaten me with their paper, I punch them in the face with my already clenched fist and say, "Oh shit, I'm sorry. I thought that paper would protect you"
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all is fair in love and war
women don't play fair never have and never will.
11:11 AM
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November 15
mind on my money and money on my mind
yep, very good weekend.
I'm hurtin a little but it comes with the job.
I'm so glad I went back. It was like home.
You know what the strangest thing is? Sitting in my cubicle Monday morning. What a very diverse life!
A double life even. Wow, ok. I really don't have long to write, I just wanted to let you know that I'm still alive.
Candy~ 9:03 PM
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November 16
Dancin in the Streets
Well I still feel like poop but I’m still moving. Mind over matter I guess.
Anyhow, like I said, I had a good weekend. It was very good to be back and I didn’t fall off my shoes once! Aren’t you proud?!? I had such a great time and I totally exhausted myself. Come Monday I felt like a zombie.
I cannot explain the feeling I got when I came into work on Monday and sat down at my desk. It feels so good to have a life outside of my cubicle filled office I call Moleville. The funny thing is that having a life outside of Moleville is quite a feat. Really, the people I work with find it hard to imagine I work with the National Auto Sport Association on my free time. Could you imagine if they knew what I did for extra money on the weekends? They would have a melt down in their brown leather penny loafers. Leaving only a starched white shirt and perfectly creased Dockers lying atop their perfectly shined shoes with the inhabitant nowhere to be found. Well if that happened I would consider myself off the hook because there would be no-one to spread the juicy news.
In other news:
My bro Carl called me this weekend asking if I’d heard from Liz my step-mom about Thanksgiving. He’d been calling and leaving messages but she’s not calling him back. So here we are a week before the big day and no word from her. It’ll be interesting to see how this pans out. I hope I’ll be pleasantly surprised but most likely I’ll be miserably disappointed. I asked him to keep trying to contact her and to let me know what he comes up with. My Sis Caren has opened her home to the tribe, we can all gather there and feel cruddy together I suppose.
I have always really hated the holidays, now I LOATHE the holidays. I hated the holidays because of a lot of reasons. Buying gifts for people I barely know, working in retail for so many years dealing with idiotic customers, remembering that my mother was out there somewhere not giving a crap about me, realizing that Christmas is not about Jesus’ birth but about a fat man in a red suit and who gets the most stuff in the end and the over all fake spirit of it all. Normally, Thanksgiving and Christmas where spent with my Dad and Liz. That’s what I did. They made things better. Sitting in the cozy living room drinking wine and eating turkey. Laughing and joking and catching up with the family. Watching the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade. Christmas had turned into a nice morning where M and I and the dog would hop in the car and drive over the rivers and through the woods to help Liz cook dinner and open gifts. Christmas symbolized a nice peaceful ending to a rather hectic season. Christmas meant it was time to relax and rest.
Now, all those reasons that I listed up there really don’t bother me anymore. What bothers me is that we’ve not only lost a Dad but a tradition, a home base to gather and remember what we all look like. We’ve lost a lot.
I really am going to feel bad this year for not having my father and not having the things the way they where but I am not going to take the people I love for granted. I’m going to make the most of it and I’m going to enjoy every second with my husband and my siblings. This I promise. My Dad would and does want it that way. It’s a shame that it took him dying for me to realize that all the other stuff didn’t matter anyway. 5:08 PM
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November 17
Fall Cleaning
I think it's time I clean out my closets.....http://www.collegejunk.net/
11:15 AM
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November 20
Everybody Knows Your Name
"Making your way in the world today takes everything you've got.
Taking a break from all your worries sure could help a lot.
Wouldn't you like to get away?
Sometimes you wanna go...
Where everybody knows your name
And they're always glad you came.
You wanna be where you can see,
Troubles are all the same.
You wanna be where everybody knows your name.
You wanna go where people know,
People are all the same.
You wanna go where everybody knows your name."
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My weekend started out with a very interesting issue that to the normal person would not be an issue. Actually most normal people would be content with it.
I’m talking about a hive, a quarter size hive placed directly on my ass cheek. Why would a normal person be content with that? Well, because it is not on their forehead and it is easily concealed. Considering that I am an exotic dancer, and we get totally naked in our club AND most people are staring at my ass… you can see the problem! It looked like a big red herpie or something!
I managed to Google my problem on Friday and come up with a solution. I found out that most hives can be cleared up with an antihistamine. So I promptly popped a Claritin in hopes that it would magically disappear before my grand appearance on stage. It did, in fact, diminish dramatically during the day and I only had a small dime size red welt on my ass by the time I got to the club. What’s a girl to do?! Apply Preparation H to shrink it and apply concealer to well… Conceal it! All I had to do was to remember to apply the concealer regularly and it was magically hidden!
In my last endeavor as a stripper, I had painful knee issues. If you’ve never gone to a strip club then you are probably wondering why. Well, in the club in which I work, we dance on a stage that is about the height of a table so guys are looking at your ankles if you’re standing up. We have enough room on the stage to get down on our hands and knees and do all kinds of sexy things. If you have ever spent more than 10 minutes on your knees crawling around on linoleum or other hard surface looking for an earring you know that your knees are not accustomed to dealing with that kind of stress. I’ve always had knee problems, I think that it was because I was always falling on my knees when I was a kid. Anyhow, I suffered then and I’m suffering now of knee pain but I do believe that I’ve found a few supplements that are helping. One is Arnica, it is an herb that helps repair muscles, relieves pain and diminishes bruising. This stuff is amazing!!!!! You can take it internally or apply it topically. I chose the topical solution because the former is hard on my tummy. I apply this stuff to my knees once before work and once afterward and I do not have bruising. NONE. I also do not have much swelling. This in itself is amazing because before I started using this stuff I would have black swollen knees after Friday night and I would have to wear stockings the rest of the weekend and long skirts and pants throughout the week.
The second supplement that I found is called Lubriflex3. It is a triple action joint formula made by Schiff. It contains Glucosamine Hydrochloride (restores cartilage), Hyaluronic Acid (it is a component in the natural synovial fluid that is in your knees), Chinese Scullcap and Black Ctechu (these last two are antioxidant that helps protect and preserve the cartilage and synovial fluid). Aside from making me pee yellow, it has really helped with the cracking and popping that my knees have always suffered from. And now that they are stressed so much it has actually helped prevent further damage. I can notice a difference after one dose of this supplement. It claims that in thirty days it can make a huge difference. All I have to do is remember to take it twice a day with food. Not as easy as it seems I’m finding.
I made a lot of $$ this weekend and I really enjoyed myself.
Have a great day I’m out for now.
C~
1:46 PM
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November 21
Christmas is Cancelled.
Ever been caught off guard by the most common things? I go to the mall at least once a week. I don’t always buy, sometimes I go just to browse on my lunch break. Today I had a purpose. I wanted to buy some dress flats. Don’t be caught off guard by my outlandish purchase. I can’t remember the last time I actually bought dress flats. But that’s not the purpose of this entry. I’ll get to the reasoning about my purchase later. My point is that when I opened the doors to go into the mall I was hit by a gust of Holiday flare. Carols blasting and garland and all the red and green and sparkles that malls do so well. Now I knew this season was going to be a difficult one. I thought I was ready to put my best foot forward. I just found out that I’m not. No where near ready to face the holidays. I did go ahead with my search and purchase of the shoes. By the time I left the mall I couldn’t breathe and by the time I returned to work I was busting with tears. And by the time someone asked me what was wrong I exploded. I just want to curl up in my husband arms and cry myself to sleep.
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November 22
Down
Today was a standard day.
Nothing went all that wrong.
Only difference is I feel like I’m catching a cold and I feel like I could sleep forever. I would like to sleep at least until January.
I asked my niece to find out if there is anything going on Thursday. She hasn’t called me back yet. I’m thinking of saying screw it and not leaving the house or my jammies. Whatever I do I’ll have M and Christian with me so I’ll be ok.
I’m having a hard time concentrating, therefore, it’s hard to write.
That’s all the updates I have for you.
4:52 PM
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November 23
Sweet Home Alabama
Have a great day with your families.
3:56 PM
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November 25
It’s beginning to feel a lot like……
Christmas never felt like this. Well ok I remember when Christmas felt worse than this. So I can say that this is something that I’m learning to accept. At least my father offered me a few good years without drama from Mothers. I also have to add that I have my own life now and this bullshit is not going to overwhelm my life.
Let me start from where I left off…. My Brother (father’s son) was leaving messages for my step-mom asking about Thanksgiving. Would there be a dinner? Where we invited? Hello? Anybody home? I left this task in his hands because he was able to accept that she would be having a hard time with the Holiday, he was willing to give her the benefit of the doubt. She never called him back.
The Monday before Thanksgiving rolls around and still no response from her. My sister-in-law drove 200 miles and confronted my step mother at work. I don’t know the tone of the conversation but the gist was “are we going to have Thanksgiving dinner?”. Step Mom said oh yes of course we are!
I was torn. I wanted to go and support our end of the family. I didn’t want to go because I knew it was going to tear me apart with my Dad not being there. I didn’t want to go because I was scared of the cold shoulder from my step-mother and her children. M didn’t want to go either. He said if we had to force our invitation, it just wasn’t right.
My Brother, his wife and two kids, Sister, her friend Deb, Niece, her husband and her two children all went to the dinner. I avoided their calls because I didn’t want to argue my point until all was settled.
So M, Christian and I all hung out at my house watching TV and talking and eating a cheese ball that Ms. Christian whipped up for us. M and I where so thankful that Christian could spend her day with us. She doesn’t realize how much better she makes us feel when she’s around. She has an intuition that surpasses most adult’s. I hope we made her holiday a little better too.
Their dinner started at 3 o’clock. At 4:30 my Niece called me from my sister’s house down the road from my Dad’s house. She said she would never go back. She said that my step-mom’s family politely ignored our side of the family. Dad’s children sat at the table and ate dinner and Step-Mom and children ate in the living room. She said they where there for about an hour and the iciness was their cue to leave. I’m glad to say that I didn’t go. I would have sat their and cried the whole time. For the loss of my father and for the loss of my mother.
What are the chances of loosing two mother’s in one lifetime? And both are still alive. I will not believe that I am such a bad person. Hell, that we are such bad people!
So M, Christian and I went to Cracker Barrel for dinner. We drove all around town looking for someplace open and it was the only restaurant open.
My Niece and her family stopped by our house for a bit on their way home and then we went to bed. Christian went home you pervs.
Anyhow, Wednesday night at the club was not so great. It was not as busy as I expected and I spent most of my $$ on alcohol but at least being there occupied my brain. This weekend should be a very good one. Hopefully I’ll walk out each night w/ more than $500.
We’re not allowed to take time off at my day job during this time of year. That goes for all employees. That’s what you get for working retail. So I’m here working – ish.
Have a great weekend, and I hope you had a great big feast yesterday.
C
10:09 AM
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November 27
Evenflo
Damn it, I typed an update here and pasted it to Word for spell-check but I lost it. Crap. so now you get the scaled version.
I hurt my foot on Friday night, I feel off my shoes taking off my panties. It still hurts.
M is taking Jonny to the Marine Corps recruiting center. He's off to boot camp. We'll miss him!
That's it for now, I'm still working on my first cup of coffee and I don't feel like typing all that again. Have a great Sunday!
Kisses
Candy
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